His heart pumps
I found you alive
Gossip Spreads
and I thought you dead
I thought you cold
I looked for you
I searched for you
I asked for you
But zero results
Here with a red cup
In your hand
Alive
I find you alive
And I want to tell the others
But I think you shall be my secret
I deep inhale you
You’re wonderful
You exude things
I never knew you could
You’re braver than the person I left
or the person who followed
I wonder if you ever
looked for me
Because I may be a hard person to find
I changed my name
and moved a few times
But I feel like you didn’t
because my number is the same
And if you needed me
you could have called me
And I look at you
like a mother
who just laid eyes
on her baby for the first time
you look so happy
I don’t approach
I wanted to tell her
I found you
And have named you exquisite
But I want you to be my secret
I want you to be my New Years Resolution
You always felt like I was
too good for you
But now I feel like
you’re too good for me
Your being has morphed,
Your face is altered,
You have relinquished everything
that made you once iconic
still you are luminous
but I still recognize you
And I didn’t realize
How dead I was
but seeing you
makes me want to be better
look better
smell better
be floating on air
because I am so cool
I want to say 10 dollar words
and dress like an alternative punk chick
I want to wear vintage dresses
and have my hair like a female fatale
So I can be a part of your world
I want to make you proud
I want to make your heart stop
I want to be everything
I want sleepless nights
I want early mornings
I want to impress you
like you have impressed me
And that way when you
see me you will say
She’s alive!